Slow-paced march

“Time goes by slowly on the clock,
In my mind, days fly by even so,
Mesmerizing conflict between feelings
And a soul that’s eager for the unknown.

My bruises are slightly fading,
Day by day, changes are coming,
Second chances peeking in the horizon
Bringing new opportunities to the table.

I am stronger but I still stagger,
Stunned by the unfazed actions of others,
Leading me to a slow-paced march,
So to take control of my own arc.

Whenever I struggle to be patient
I now know time is an important player
That so happens to be
Glad to be on my team.”

Ana.

Originally posted: June 27, 2021

Time (IV)

“The green disappears
In the middle of the battlefield,
They got nothing on me
As I walk through it.

The son of a witch
Wrinkles his sheets
During nightmares that last for weeks.

The fisherman’s daughter
Used to paint beautiful canvas,
Now she forgets her brushes in cold water.

The old man sitting on the porch
Would greet everyone good morning,
Now he keeps his head down in mourning.

The old maid dressed in white
Loved tragic, beautiful rhymes,
But lately she’s forgotten where her books lie.

Time, ruthless, wondrous time,
Misery grows in forgotten gardens,
Like grains of sand under our footsteps
And slipping through strangers’ fingers, for centuries…

Life, ruthless, beautiful life,
We hold onto nothing most of the time,
Spreading seeds of hopefulness with tears in our eyes,
How long have humans hoped for better days to arrive?”

Ana.

Originally posted: June 2, 2021

After a year

“October is back again
To greet us after a year
Of a headstrong, persistent silence,
Like a violin crying in the distance.

The leaves from the trees fall
And I know it is about time I also
Drop, for once and for all,
Your name from the tip of my tongue.

The autumnal, stormy winds
Will carry you smoothly away
From the broken heart within me
So wounded, yet still dreaming hopeful dreams.

It was an urgent need to vacant
The place you took up in me for too long,
Reassuring as the thought may be
That someday, I may find someone who’ll love me.

Someone who will finally love me
Like you never did,
Like I wished you did,
Like you never will…”

Ana.

Originally posted: October 4, 2020

Dear September

“As I bid August goodbye
To you September I say hello,
As I would like to know
If this year, I will be alone
Ardently wishing for love
And peace for my soul.

Dear September,
Will you bring me
Streams of happiness
Or will you make me cry
In the absence
Of warmth in the cold,
Dwelling in the unknown
I have always known?”

Ana.

Originally posted: September 1, 2018

I meet myself

“I meet myself
In the mirror,
Looking like a stranger
More often than not,
Unable to untie my every knot.

I search for myself
In every new path
I come across,
Hoping for better days
To finally find me.

I force myself
To go forward
Anxious and with fear,
For it’s about time
I let go of my stillness
And dare to start living.”

Ana.

Originally posted: January 17, 2021

Our time

“After yet another sleepless night,
I open the windows to welcome daylight,
Waiting for the sun to erase from my mind
The memories of nightmares in my heart intertwined.

I ask the breeze to ease my heavy eyes
So I could see the colours of the sky
And spot you, by luck, one last time.

For time, mercilessly, flies
And I feel restless without you by my side,
Fearing our time is over as we can’t hide
From the path destiny has given us by design.”

Ana

The heat

“Underneath the boiling sun
I close my eyes and catch my breath,
Wishing for a light breeze of fresh air
To ease the heat and the thoughts in my head.

Whirlwind is turning into a hurricane,
For my worrying is fed by overthinking;
A never ending problem building up a severe case
No matter how hard I try to shrink it.

Pardon me, all I do, it may seem,
Is to whine and complain about it,
But since I can’t seem to make my faults my power
For now, I will just blame the heat in its peak hour.”

Ana.

Originally posted: August 21, 2018

An old box

“I found an old box of things,
Precious gifts once sent to me,
Carefully packed as the day they arrived
After travelling oh, so many miles.

The innocence warms my heart,
Friendship is such a beautiful art,
If only sometimes it could last…
Alas, I still cherish who we were at the start.

Today, I reminisce the meaningful moments
A care package reminds me of,
Like a hug I never got
Before time and distance broke it all off.

Memories are funny things,
They dance in the essence of a symphony,
They fly in the scent of a new perfume,
And even though alone I’m still blue,
I realize I would always be here for you…”

Ana.

Originally posted: December 27, 2020

All there is

“All there was is all there is,
Puzzle pieces of you and me
Lying forgotten in the twilight,
At the end of the tunnel, a fading light.

All there is, is all there’ll ever be –
My absence in your life,
Your memory on my mind,
Linking us forever through time.”

Ana.

Originally posted: December 13, 2020

Time & I

“Time and I
Haven’t been seeing eye to eye –
All is a blur but days fly by,
When I think I got it right
I never do, after all, who am I?

Life and I
Have been struggling, I will not lie –
Too many lows and not a single high,
Battling through every sleepless night
Trying to believe I will make it out alright.

Myself and I
Have been feeling exhausted all the time –
Putting on a brave face, laughing so not to cry,
I push everyone away, this is a one-on-one fight,
Too numb, by now, to know if I’m living even though I am alive…”

Ana.

Originally posted: November 11, 2020