Your eyes

“I admire the pile of sleepless nights
That has been growing every time
I toss and turn and overthink
The beginning of a new link.

I feel detached from your life,
So, I can’t understand the reason why
Your eyes tend to seek mine
In a crowded room dressed to the nines.

But the faint line between us
Seems to grow a little bolder
With every stolen glance
And hellos growing stronger.

You are yet a puzzle I can’t understand,
With eyes that seek and never rest
For even after I showed my hand,
They still wait for when they’ll see me next…”

Ana

Craving

“Kiss my pain away,
So flowers can bloom in its wake –
Is there a better way
To get rid of such ache?

Thought I knew what craving tastes like,
But there’s a different taste to you;
Can you feel it too?
Or do you only taste my blue?

So long I long for you
There isn’t much my heart can do
Than flying to meet you in dreams
Where we rest near streams.

For our bond is but a thin line
Ready to grow with the flow –
If you call it yours, I’ll call it mine,
Ready to go wherever you go…”

Ana

After so many years

“After so many years
The scars remain untouched,
As my eyes keep falling
For the same old trap
Of a silhouette
That awakes the past.

Plenty of people in the world
And I have met some of the greatest,
Yet it’s always you the one I miss,
The one my heart foolishly treasures…

My soul stubbornly holds onto the belief
We will meet again someday,
But I find myself unsure of wanting it to be true,
Afraid you might ignore me like you used to…”

Ana.

Originally posted: May 3, 2018

Time travelling

“Time travelling would be great
To meet you again in the dark,
Hold your hand and tell you hi
I haven’t seen you in a while.

Time travelling would be perfect
To wish upon the shooting star
I missed the night I lost you,
Left alone, crying in the dark.

Some wonder to which decade
They would love to travel
But I know the date I would go back to
So we would always be together.”

Ana.

Originally posted: May 2, 2018

The ghost of you

“The grey sky calls back the ghost of you,
The eyes, the smile, the long-gone youth,
Back to the time when my heart longed for you
But my reason forced me to, my feelings, mute.

Today, my sight gets blurry as I watch the rain,
Wondering which drop will win –
The rain or the tear –
Both falling down on my windowpane.

After so long, the angels have cried,
Ten thousand times, I have sighed,
But you are no longer to be seen
Keeping to yourself as the ghost you’ve always been…”

Ana

Wonder

“I wonder…
Have we ever been at the same place at the same time?
Have we ever walked past each other and didn’t realize?
Have you ever seen me and you didn’t want to say hi?
If so, don’t you wonder why?
I wonder,
Have you ever thought about me?
You can’t be bored by the past;
Been there, done that, you don’t look back.
But I wonder,
Has your mind ever played a trick on you
And recollected some of your past memories
Where a glimpse of me would suddenly come to you?
After all these years I no longer
Can be sure if you have ever loved me;
I wonder…
Do you know I loved you when I was younger?”

Ana.

Originally posted: July 13, 2016

Write Me a Letter

“Write me a letter – the old kind;
By hand and from your heart
So I could see the way you rhyme
Observing the waves of your handwriting
Filling a page once white
Owning a gift like any other of
Diminishing the hole inside my heart.
Write me a letter – the real kind;
Telling me how you really feel
When you’ve lost the count of how many sunsets
You have seen falling over your town
As you feel alone in your own house.
Write me a letter – I shall write you back,
For I have been trying to find my way back
To myself, searching between the lines
I wrote in the past knowing I have changed,
Even if my heart still seeks the same.”

Ana.

Originally posted: June 27, 2016

I Fear

“I fear your eyes – I fear to look straight at you and I don’t know why.
I fear the way you talk – the way you sigh as you walk.
Tiny little things that would mean nothing if only I
Didn’t fear the second you say goodbye.
Leaving seems easy and pleasing, yet
I fear I won’t be able to forget
Everything you have said to me
Under the cherry blossom tree
As I watched the flowers dance with the breeze.
I will wait for when I will see you next
Today, tomorrow, someday…
I fear the wait won’t end;
I’ll never get to hug you again.
So if you ever find someone has written a text
That makes you remember a bit of yourself
I hope one day you’ll only have to look at your bookshelf
To find my name in the middle of your favorites of all times
And know that you will travel between the lines
Of most of the pages I could ever write.”

Ana.

Originally posted: June 12, 2016

Not here

“Can you tell me
Something,
Whatever it may be?
I don’t mind
As long as you talk to me.
Don’t leave,
Please, stay with me.
Why the ones I care for
Always tend to leave?
I wonder if I’ll ever find
Someone who will
Stick around long enough to see
All the love I have to give.
I can see it isn’t you
As you make your way
To where you are supposed to be
Wherever that may be,
It’s not here,
Nor it is next to me.”

Ana.

Originally posted: February 15, 2016

Sometimes, I close off my heart

“Sometimes, I close off my heart,
So it doesn’t get hurt on a fairytale,
Forced to get back to the start.

Sometimes, I close off my heart,
Looking carefully into it, at night,
So to see if it is still alright.

Sometimes, I close off my heart,
Out of fear, out of might,
So to make everything right.

Sometimes, I close off my heart,
Because, if I don’t, it will stop and rewind
So to remind me of the many reasons why
It longs for your heart, every single night…”

Ana