In the open

“Raindrops outside my window
Remind me I’m not alone;
They whisper names that years ago
Would say “one last hug before I go.”

By now, I pray to Gods hoping they care to listen,
Even though I still don’t know their names;
It’s daunting as it is to miss them,
When, these days, I only see them in frames.

It’s all fun and games
Until one of us is missing out,
Shadows haunting corners of our minds
Pretending they’ll protect our hide out.

But they don’t. They never do.
It’s out in the open, now
How,
By missing you,
I cry when the skies do too…”

Ana

Another year

“Another year of dots and lines,
Paths crossed, strangers that passed by,
Lies and silences, unsaid goodbyes,
Heavy sunny days and many sleepless nights.

The distance that grew for months
Is still here to keep us apart;
Hugs are now pure gold,
A treasure I long for so long to find.

All year, I begged the skies
For you to keep me in your heart,
But it’s been a while and I’ve lost sight
Of what kept my hope for you to come back alive.

So I shall move on,
With the new year I’ll find my balance,
Following new dots and lines,
Crossing paths with strangers one more time.

I shall meet my future knowing,
From now on, no one will see
The secret I still keep –
Invisible on my skin,
Your name written
With permanent ink…”

Ana.

Originally posted: December 30, 2020

Perhaps this time

“I follow the frozen path,
Beside me, there’s no one,
As I get through the wooden gates
Where no ivy grows.

Solitude is a dangerous road,
I long for your smile whenever I’m alone,
And nowadays, my own company is all I own,
Memories deepening their roots, making it harder for me to grow.

I have been mourning
People who are still alive,
Do you even know
What that’s like?

To miss a smile that warmed
My heart and soul, far or near,
But like the sun in the winter
Is now inevitably dimmer.

Distance has gotten heavier through the years,
I guess I wasn’t enough to keep you here –
A tale as old as time, it seems to be on repeat,
They all get close but I always watch them leave.

Perhaps this time,
As the night falls,
I will stand under the stars
To mourn myself…”

Ana.

Originally posted: January 3, 2021

Time and time again

“I give time and time again,
But my heart is still lacking
A tight hug, a loving soul
To love and grow old.

I love time and time again,
But life is still silent,
No kiss, no flare,
No rose’s scent in the air.

I try time and time again,
But there’s no one
To hold my hand
So I remain cold time and time again…”

Ana

Originally posted: December 1, 2021

The winter is close

“Maybe the cold has frozen my pen
For I can’t seem to write a few words
That might, somehow, warm my soul.

The winter is so close
I feel it already in my bones,
The rays of sunshine are mere kisses,
Every day, by the rain, hidden,
Leaving us way too early.

My mind feels empty,
A vacant space I can’t seem to entertain,
And as days go by nothing changes,
I might as well be missing someone I’ve never met.

Words, please, come to me,
I do need you!
If I don’t write, my soul shall leave me,
And if tonight I cease to be,
Have I ever even lived?”

Ana.

Originally posted: December 20, 2020

Retrospectives

“Retrospectives have now begun,
But I’m nostalgic all year round,
Roaming to somewhere in the past,
To a moment when happiness did last,
Hoping to find you again with a smile,
So to feel your warmth in my heart one last time.”

Ana.

Originally posted: December 16, 2020

A hourglass stilled in time

“A hourglass stilled in time,
In a mystical place inside my mind,
Is surrounded by sacred silence
As it floats serenely in the instance
Before your words have tainted
The honey dropping from me.

The moment is filled with ecstasy,
This is where the present will lead
Us, so we finally pick the path
That will decide where we’re heading at last.

I stay here, mesmerized by the flickering light
I cease to be – for now, I rather not face the night –
As I hang onto the stillness before the chaos fell down,
So I can pretend, for a bit longer, you are still around…”

Ana.

Originally posted: November 7, 2021

Hearts get broken

“Hearts get broken,
When promises get broken;
Isn’t that logic in a nutshell?

For, sometimes,
What is simple
Does not rhyme.

I get headaches
From time to time.

My heart’s been broken
For such a long time…

What more rhymes
With time
But a broken heart
That sees no art
In yet another
Restart?”

Ana

Autumn comes to us

“Autumn comes to us smoothly,
Like a friend that wants to catch up
Under blankets on the couch, staying up
Until the moon gives way to daylight.

The vibes get darker but we’re still bright –
Eager for cosiness, we romanticize
All that, in us, an interest might rise,
After all, behind grey clouds, there’s still sunshine.

As I see leaves starting to leave their branch,
I confess, I hold on to everything I can,
Hoping that until we reach next Spring
My imagination may always be evergreen.”

Ana.

Originally posted: September 22, 2021

In-between our lines

“Today, I came back to overlook the vines
As I get ready to, the Summer, say goodbye,
Thinking how all our trying times
Have stranded us in-between our lines.

Mesmerizing way to stop a glimpse of you
In time – even though the hourglass keeps turning
Like the sand that slips through our fingers
On the last beach day of this season.

Days are shorter and I now wonder
How will I cope as your silence gets longer?
A far off helping hand I lost for another,
Leaving me pacing back and forth, missing a stranger.

Alone I’ve been and I’ll continue my growth like the vinery,
Knowing all there’s left for me to do is hope the memory
Of me, that will remain lost in-between your long-forgotten pages
Will make you, one day, reminisce about the girl you knew for ages…”

Ana.

Originally posted: September 19, 2021